A Woman's Voice

Seeing Beauty When There’s None ~ December 30, 2011 by Nikki Rosen


“He who has courage and faith will never perish in misery.” ~ Anne Frank

It’s hard to think Anne Frank was only 14 when she wrote this. Fourteen and hated – for no other reason than being Jewish. Fourteen and having her world as she had known it – turned upside down. Fourteen and not able to go outside to smell the flowers, or attend a dance or sit in a classroom and daydream about boys or her future or life…..

In spite of the hatred and brutality that had taken over her world – in spite of the being stripped of all the comforts of home and school and friendships – in spite of those who believed she had no right to exist….fourteen year old Anne wrote as if her world was normal…as if nothing had changed…putting her thoughts down on paper….the thoughts of a normal teen…..

I try to visualize what it must have felt like to be fourteen and forced to live in a small space with people terrified for their lives – fearing the craziness of those who wanted to kill not only you but your whole race – people who lived with fear that if they were found – they would die….or worse…

Anguish – cries heard in the streets – family, friends, respected elders – taken – their lives stolen – beaten like violent criminals – in temples, in shops, in communities – there was no safe place….nowhere to hide. It was always just a matter of time.

Yet in the midst of that senseless brutality – fourteen year old Anne kept her diary and wrote like any typical young teen pondering the world around her and her place in it.

Her words strong, positive, powerful: “I twist my heart round again, so that the bad is on the outside and the good is on the inside, and keep trying to find a way of becoming what I would so like to be….I don’t think of all the misery but of the beauty that still remains….”

I didn’t have the strength that Anne had. Or the courage – nor her positive outlook. I felt the hatred and I hated back. I felt the brutality and I wanted to lash out against every perpetrator who hurt me. I let the brutality pull me into its lies – into its fear, into its hatred – Everything in my world was black – dark  – I saw no beauty. I wanted so bad to give up and to give in to the darkness. I saw no hope – no light – no meaning.

Anne had been raised by loving parents – parents who gave her security and a strong foundation  – so strong that when the darkness came – she was able to push it aside and still see beauty. I’m trying to parent my girls that way. Maybe it’s working. My oldest 13 – almost 14 – is amazingly positive. She inspires me – she teaches me….

Growing up in a Jewish home – I heard the phrase over and over: “to not remember the past is to be condemned to repeat it.” I used to wonder why do Jewish people constantly talk about what happened….and hold memorials and give honor to the survivors.   I was told – ‘so it will never happen again. From one generation to the next – we must tell what happened.’

I think I’m beginning to understand…..to tell of the brutality we lived – in some way is a protection for the next generation – to know – to be aware – to live a bit differently – to understand there is darkness – but there’s also a strength, a hope – a light with each survivor who stands up and says, “I survived. The darkness couldn’t destroy me.”

I never wanted anyone to know what happened to me – all those things I lived – Today I want you to know, “I survived.” And every time I read some of your blogs – and know you too have survived – I’m cheering

Thank you so much Nikki for sharing such an intimate part of your self with us.

Nikki Rosen is the award-winning Author of   “In The Eye of Deception” (A True Story).

Website: http://gentlerecovery.webs.com

Blog Site: http://cultofdeception.blogspot.com

Blog Site: Tips & Tools for Healing from Trauma http://www.gentlerecovery.blogspot.com


FEAR ~ December 21, 2011 by Audra Krell

Posted in INSPIRATIONAL QUOTES AND ANECDOTES by doloresayotte on December 21, 2011
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Remember when fear used to be different? Back in the day it was a gangly teenager, all knees and elbows. We tucked ourselves around the sharp angles and edges, bent ourselves to conform to childlike worries.

As we grew, so did fear. It became a young adult, and we wondered where it would show up next. And with energy like that, we could conjure it up at any given time. Sometimes it was better to sleep with fear than to sleep alone.

And then fear became a mature adult. An obese, dark monster, who nightly pulls up a chair and waits. We smell and feel its hot breath before we’ve even opened our eyes. When we do, fear doesn’t wait for an invitation. It curls around us, taking up all the air and consuming us from the outside in.

When fear wants to spoon, I pray. I write as if my life depended on it, I spend time with my loves and I focus on the moment. 

Living in the moment reaps a heart of thankfulness for all I do have; taking the focus off of what I’m afraid I won’t.


Thanks so much Audra for such a refreshing reminder about how all-consuming  fear can be and how to better deal with it. To learn more about Audra please visit her at:


INSPIRATIONAL QUOTES AND ANECDOTES ~ Fear ~ September 15, 2011 by Dolores Ayotte

Posted in INSPIRATIONAL QUOTES AND ANECDOTES by doloresayotte on September 15, 2011
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We all know what fear is because every one of us has felt it at one time or another to varying degrees.  Fear can be extremely debilitating if we let it get a strong hold on us and allow it to control our lives.  Overcoming any kind of phobia has its challenges whether it ranges from mild to severe.  To openly admit that we feel fearful at times is one of the first steps to helping conquer fear and the unhealthy side effects and stifling consequences it can have on our lives.



You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face…the danger lies in refusing to face the fear, in not daring to come to grips with it…You must make yourself succeed every time. You must do the think you think you cannot do.”  (Eleanor Roosevelt)

BLOG HOPPING DAY ~ Mistaken Emotions In Dysfunctional Relationships ~ February 16, 2011 by Darlene Ouimet

Posted in BLOG HOPPING by doloresayotte on February 16, 2011
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Once again, one of  Darlene Ouimet’s post has hit home with me. Darlene has a way of cutting to the quick and explaining things in a very clear and matter of fact way. In this article, she clarifies the difference between excitement and anxiety. I must admit that at times, I have confused the two. On looking back, I realize that I often thought I was excited about an upcoming visit or celebration when in reality I was experiencing stress or anxiety. It’s a fine line and takes a little reflecting to actually know which emotion we are dealing with. Please take a moment to check out Darlene’s article as she explains  Mistaken Emotions In Dysfunctional Relationships. Please take a moment to check out some of the comments too.


Posted in INSPIRATIONAL QUOTES AND ANECDOTES by doloresayotte on July 18, 2010
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There is not enough darkness in all the world to put out the light of even one small candle.” Robert Alden

When I was a kid…I couldn’t talk. I was too afraid…I held my breath… too scared to let my guard down…to scared to trust that I wouldn’t get hurt.  I withdrew….and lived in a make-believe world. One day I invented a friend – a street light.. When I’d drive up to it…it always turned green just for me and when it was red…it was because it wanted me to stay and talk. That traffic light helped me hang on….helped me get through some pretty dark times.

Funny thing – I have another Friend who is a Light….He’s my best friend….just like that traffic light was – only difference – He’s for real. Now all I want to do is shine His Light through me so others can have hope…and find freedom.

Thank you Nikki for your inspirational words.

Nikki Rosen is the award-winning Author of  “In The Eye of Deception” (A True Story)

Website:  http://gentlerecovery.webs.com

Blog Site: http://cultofdeception.blogspot.com


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